blogspot something wrong larr.
axe.princess.is.pissed.off.with.blogspot.now.
seriously, i think i'll properly post tomorrow since i've got tons to talk about today.
siiiiigh.
!@#$!!$#@$@
stoopid blogspot.
you're lucky that i can't curse & swear since it's the month of Ramadan.
=P
well, i'll chitter chatter more tomorrow, okays?
lovies.kisses.huggies.smilies.&.etc.etc.etc.
axe.princess.alisha.is.eating.chocolate.yan.yan.now.
whaaat? it's already 9.57 pm now.
p.s. sowie, to all my darlings that i told you that i was updating today.
blogspot's being a teenie weenie biatch.
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the most horrible friend.
axe.princess.wants.to.cry.her.heart.out.but.she.just.can't.do.it.
something i drew out of randomness.
friday, 31 july 2009. it was the date i was hoping for. i was supposed to go out with deah & hidayah after school. we were supposed to go to jurong library. yeah, it was we, alright. but, we meant as in only deah & i. where was hidayah? at that time, we didn't knew.
i had lunch (sort of) with deah at starbucks. we shared a vanilla frappie & a chocolate muffin together. yummy! =P
during school time, hidayah told me that she needed to go to one of the banks in bedok first & then, she'll get to the library by car. but, when we got to the library, she wasn't there. we kept on calling both her house & handphone but nobody answered. so, we just went into the library first.
even after we walked around & searched for the books i wanted, she still wasn't there. i thought, something was up. we tried calling her again but it was always the same thing. but, this time, deah said that hidayah had rejected her call, probably intentionally.
that was when my sister showed up. we talked a bit & just continued reading our own books. 'cause at that moment, my sister wasn't in a good mood to take most of my crap, wacky crap or naggy crap. since she received her exams results on that day.
hidayah texted that she had some business at home & she couldn't come. but, we didn't take it seriously. even though her message sounded like she's pretty pissed, we never thought about it carefully. that was when i thought about something, someting i effing regretted. even though i didn't say it to her or anything, i regretted it. & i still do.
the horrible truth was, i thought that she was purposely ditching out on us & lying to us. i really thought that. i thought that she was the type of person to do that. i thought of her horribly. all of this was too much for me to digest so i decided to call it a day.
we went back by mrt. as i walked home with nazzie, i told her what i thought too. but, she only talked about other stuffs.
friday, 31 july 2009. i thought of hidayah as a horrible person.
saturday, 01 august 2009. my feet is friggin' aching! umm, yeah. today, nazzie & i were dragged to mustafa centre & we did tons of shopping. we had mcdonald's for lunch. i wore sneakers but i didn't wear any socks. (stoopid of me, right?) xP
when i was sitting in the car, waiting for my father buy dinner. i received a phone call. it was hidayah. she called to ask whether i was bringing swimming costume on monday or not. after we finished on that topic, i changed the subject gently & asked her why she couldn't come with us on the day before.
i remained shocked when i heard her true reason. but, it only lead me to ask more questions as i was curious to found out more. but, more answers from her only led me to shame. i wanted to cry but i decided to not to & so, i just casually ended the call by saying, "can we talk on monday?"
how could i thought of my friend like that? how could i just judge her like that? how could i even think that she was a horibble person?
saturday, 01 august 2009. it hit me like a gunshot. i realized that hidayah wasn't a horrible friend.
i was. & i still am...
lovies.kisses.huggies.smilies.&.etc.etc.etc.
axe.princess.alisha.says.that.she's.not.crying.that.tear.from.her.face.is.from.the.rain.it's.raining.
to deah, i'm sorry that i told on you to hidayah. (usually, trust is lost.)
to hidayah, i'm sorry that i thought of you as a horibble person. i'm sorry that i thought that you lied to us. (usually, trust is lost & rivalry is gained.)
the both of you are the greatest friends i could ask for. i know that we're a group.
but, a horrible friend like me is not worthy enough to deserve two special people like you.
i'm not sure if i could work all of this out.
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